Friends?

Hello skulls 

So its always a headache for me when you ask me about the topic "Friends" 

What are friends? There is nothing / less things out there that is more important than friendship . 

"A friend is someone you can talk with about a problem, someone who is always there for you" 

Finding a person that will be there for you is too hard. But i'm sure there is . Besides being there for you, you won't be able to know if the friend you thought of is your true friend and won't ever backstab you and this lead me to the next topic . 

Backstab.

This word is very powerful . And why i say that? Well, it will break your heart more than when you break up with your bf/gf . Knowing all those bittersweet memories be gone in just seconds. It hurts. More than what you imagined.

I dare not say that what i wrote here is totally true and you might be so lucky to not experience this huge setback in your life. Lucky you then. But these are just some of my experience with friendships. 

Back to the first topic

Since young , i always hoped to find a friend that i can share everything with. It need not have to be a lot . One is just surely enough . 

When i think that i found one, they always leave me . Leave me in a deep hole of loneliness . That is when i started to be very shy and kept everything to myself.

Whenever i see people laughing so happily and i'm here, looking at them, envying their friendship,wishing i could have the courage to talk to them. Until when i was in primary 2(?) i met a super cute guy. He's so bubbly and girly at the same time xD many guys often mocked at him because he liked dolls and whatever girl stuffs. Calling him gay and only hang out with the girls. (Liking girl's stuff doesn't mean he's a gay?) and so we became best buds . I enjoyed the time with him but we drifted apart when we're in primary 4/5 cause of the change in classes. 

I met another girl during that period, lets call her "E" 

"E" was too, very bubbly and friendly

She was loved by almost everybody that sees her

And yup, in the end we stopped contacting each other after we changed schools.

All promises to stay with each other forever are just lies.

Moving on to secondary school

I'm very happy at first cause i got into the same school as a "best friend" and a childhood friend because i won't be so lonely in a new environment. 

Hah. As if

Friendship problems got more serious and some part of the year we will always fight . And it never ends. 

I'm just so sick of this kind of things going on. Aren't you just tired of all these nonsense? Indirecting on twitter and telling a lot people other stories. What's more? 

Sec 1 was still okay but when sec 2 and sec 3 comes , its like WW3 has come. 

I'll just skip the details and go on to my conclusion. (If not you'll be like thinking of pressing the cross button) 

Well , recently i just watched "dawn of the planet apes" i really enjoyed the movie as it taught me many things. Human don't forgive easily, once you started it first , it will never end no matter what. 

Now i am blessed with a bunch of crazy bitches that i love so much. You know who you are ❤️

I cannot say that i am a PERFECT friend, but i will try my very best to be here when you are down . 

A note for people.

"Don't act like you like a person where actually you don't" 

XOXO